My first foray into the (il)legal....

Ok, so since I've been diagnosed everybody (and I mean EVERYBODY  from friends to Dr.'s to grandmothers) have been telling me to try medicinal marijuana- reeeeeefer. I'm not much of a drug type person, I don't even take Advil until the ailment is so bad I have no other choice. The nausea has been intense from radiation. And getting worse. After 5 days of constantly feeling like I was going to toss cookies I gave in and sent a plea to a few friends that "are in the know" of these things and because I'm a complete dork sent cryptic messages like "hey Hun, the nausea is getting really bad do you have any "medicine" that would help..... Like the kind you eat". The Feds would NEVER catch on to that, right?! They write back "oh edibles, sure whaddya want". So, I have an AMAZING friend who actually researched what would be best to get for me (too much sugar might make me feel worse, don't want to be too high just mellow and pain free etc).... And she brought over a few things for me to try. The first one that she explained "might be the ticket" was a Cheeba Chew made from indica hash (sativa would be stoney, indica more mellow). It's a chewy block, kind of like a square tootsie roll. She said to eat 1/4 of it. I did. First off let me say, I felt AWESOME I had no nausea whatsoever. After about  an hour I sent her a text saying it was wonderful and I felt great but, I'm glad I don't have to go anywhere. After 2 hours though...... Wow. Here are a few of my thoughts during the next several hours:

I can't move.

I'm going to try to move my feet. I can't. Do I have feet? I can't move.

I'm hungry.

What If someone comes to the door? They will know I'm stoned. I can't move.

I'm just going to close my eyes and hope this goes away soon.

It's not going away.

What if I forget to breathe (spent next 5 minutes forcing myself to breathe) started feeling like I was going to hyperventilate, thought maybe I should call 911 and tell them I might forget to breathe.

Maybe I should call Dave and tell him to come home. Can't move to get phone.

I don't think I like this. 

Am I going to feel like this forever? 

Whyyyyy did I do this to myself? 

Do I have feet?

I finally fell asleep and when I woke up when Dave got home (3 hours later) I woke like someone who hadn't slept in months.... Face numbing sleep, I clearly hadn't moved (couldn't move?) and had all of my bodyweight resting on my face the entire time. But I felt AWESOME-no nausea, no headache, no body aches.... I felt, normal. I also managed to GRUB and Dave knew I was loaded when I was eating a very large piece of chocolate cake! Hahahaha 

All in all, it was totally worth it to feel good and get some much needed rest but, as far as dosage I clearly have a few kinks to work out!! 

Radiation- about as much fun as getting poked in the eye. Repeatedly.

 I started my radiation treatment on July 31st... It's not SO bad. There is no pain involved just lots of noises, whooshes and beeps. The first 3 days I was sickkkkkkkk. About 2 hours after "rads" I would start throwing up and throwing up and.... Well, you get it. I started taking Zofran (Ondansetron, which makes me think of a nightclub) the second week but, I'm not really sure it has helped much. It's been pretty miserable and I have to carry my little green barf bag everywhere I go..... And that's IF I can manage to leave the house at all. They say I have had so much nausea and tummy issues because they are radiating my intestines and colon. Yay. 

We managed to get one family vacation in during August and I actually felt pretty good for the majority of it. When I planned it I knew that I couldn't miss rads so I made my appt first thing Friday morning. On my way to treatment I was joking to myself (yes, I talk to myself) "I wonder if I offered my tech cash if he'd say the machine was broken and I could skip it" ... Haha, well I would not REALLY do that but, it was a fun thought. So, when I pull into the parking lot at the oncology center and the tech meets me in the parking lot to tell me that the radiation machine was broken I was extremely happy! On our family trip we had all 5 kids, they each brought a friend, my mom, niece, Dave and I and Dave's mom and dad. We went to Lake Lopez in Arroyo Grande, Ca. It was fun. We saw tons of wildlife including 2 bears, we boated, swam, laughed and ate. Thanks to my mama and Dave for pulling up all the slack it takes to pull off a trip for 15 people!