I hate everyone today.....

I hate everyone and everything today, seriously... I do. I'm sure that there's some anxiety going on about getting my PET scan results tomorrow but for whatever reason I'm just so angry today. I hate cancer, I hate that my lungs hurt, I hate that I can't even take a shower without being completely exhausted. I hate that my arms and feet are covered in bruises from the THIRTEEN needles they poked in me yesterday trying to get an IV placed. I hate laundry. I hate the color of my walls. I even picked a stupid fight with Dave for no reason. I've literally been sitting around seething today. It's stupid. And pointless. I know this. THEN I picked up Piper (7) from school...... Kids have such enthusiasm for life and it didn't take much more than her "hey mom, I had a great day today how was yours... Are you feeling good or bad today, I hope good cause I super love you" in that imgoingtotalkuntilirunoutofbreath way and BAM my day was better...... I still have scanxiety about tomorrow but, I know there's nothing I can do to change those results. Sigh...... I'll update tomorrow when I get the "news" and hopefully I'll be back to my normally upbeat self! Lol 

Chemo #5 and Britney Jean

So, as I sit here on my 2nd day of inpatient chemo #5 I'm still on a high from my awesome weekend. I received front row tickets to see the Britney Spears show in Las Vegas for Christmas. I was thrilled, to say the least. But, what I walked away with was MUCH more priceless than seeing and MEETING an "idol". I've said this before but, it just rings more true each day. I have AMAZING friends and family!!! My brother got these great tickets for Dave and I which started the whole weekend but, as soon as I knew it some friends were contacting Planet Hollywood and telling them my "story" and that we were celebrating my Bucketlist weekend-and soon we had EPIC rooms at PH. Another friend "knew a guy" and I was told to meet him in the lobby at 6pm prior to the show where we were then personally escorted on a backstage tour including her wardrobe room and all of the props, the next thing we know we are being escorted down a hallway to meet THE Britney and have a photo with her (below). Then some friends I hadn't seen in years somehow found out where we were (FB?) and had champagne sent up to our room, on top of that my room was decorated with candles and rose petals galore. On Sunday I was pooped and we spent the day with great friends laying around in PJ's snacking, champagne drinking and watching the big game.... It was a fantastic weekend, every single second!! Meeting Brit was great but, what I will take away with me is the EFFORT everybody made for little ol me.... From personal friends to the strangers that stopped me to say I looked beautiful. It really meant a lot, much more than the idol herself could have EVER given me. 

What else happened this month...... 

I also have to talk about my adventure to Disneyland! My wonderful daughter, Ashley bought the WHOLE family tickets to the happiest place on earth for Christmas. We went for my birthday and had SUCH a great time. All 5 kids, my niece and my mama were all with me. It was a slightly cold day and the lines were short and because I'm now considered "handicapped" we got on every ride quickly. My son was "Mr in charge of mom" and pushed my wheelchair almost the entire day- pretty great for a 16 year old who a year ago wouldn't have even wanted to be SEEN with "old mom". Piper went on almost every ride in the park (minus space Mountain and Matterhorn) which was a huge accomplishment because she's usually afraid of things unknown. Ashley, Chelsea and Kylie were all so attentive and sweet to me and kind to one another..... Again, big accomplishment that there was not one single fight! The treatment I received from everyone at Disney was over the top nice..... I have to hand it to the general population for being really nice people. There's so much ugly stuff in the world but, I see a whole new side of people now. 

We also did a fundraiser in January (whew it's a good thing I had chemo light in January or I wouldn't  have made it to all of this cool stuff) - the amazing Savannah and Jes pulled off another great day, this one was at Hidden Cafe and was so much fun. I'm sure for them it was also hard work but, for me it was just fun to see everybody coming out to support me and get a great breakfast. Thanks to all of you for coming out..... I'm always humbled. 

As always thank you to everyone for your support! Love you ALL!! 

Meeting Britney 

The happiest place on earth (at least when you don't have to wait in long lines)

The breakfast crew.

Ps..... I've neglected a lot of great things over the past months but, I'm slowly going to be sneaking in posts here and there that I missed. Keep watching. :)